breath of fresh air

i have not been a good friend lately. i have not made time for God, haven't talked with him as much as i should. when i pick up the phone and call a friend, i know who i am talking to because i recognize the voice. if i don't take the time to really hear God's voice, will i honestly be able to hear him speaking into my life? isaiah 30:21 says "whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'this is the way; walk in it'". i want that voice. i NEED that voice.

these past 3 weeks of fasting and prayer have been amazing, but i know that i have not even scratched the surface of discovering who God is and what he has planned for me. i have drawn closer in many ways, but i have a long way to go until i can be confident that i am able to hear God's voice loud and clear at all times in my life.

i have confidence that God wants to talk to me. he wants to share his heart with me. he's just waiting for me to stop talking and just listen. he's waiting for me to turn everything off, quiet my heart, and just come to him. he has a plan for me and if i'm not walking the correct way, he lets me know. most of the time, i could have gotten myself back on track had i been listening for that voice behind me telling me which way to go rather than trying to be the navigator.

God has placed some amazing people in my life and i know that he has placed me in people's lives to touch them as well. i need to continue to seek after God's voice. i want to be able to hear him speaking and guiding. once i learn to communicate with him like i know i can, the blessings i have been seeing for these three weeks will increase beyond my wildest dreams.

i serve a powerful God, one who has never failed me, never let me down...even though i have constantly failed to be who i need to be. i know it's a process, not something i will perfect in a few days. thankfully, God is willing to wait and continue to work on me and grow me in to the woman he designed from the beginning.