a month and a half...not good. must get back on track with blogging.
God has really challenged me with several situations over the past 42 days. obviously, the political mess that is wisconsin right now has put my heart through the wringer on more than one occasion. i have gotten angry, i have cried, i have asked God so many questions...but ultimately, it comes down to trusting that my steps are being guided daily and that God will continue to provide, no matter what that provision looks like or how it compares to what my life has looked like up until now.
i am an amazing teacher...not because of what i am paid or receive in benefits. i am an amazing teacher because God willed it to be so. He alone gave me my talent, passion, and ability to do what i do every day. and although i don't agree with what is going on in wisconsin, nothing that happens will take away any of that.
i'm still working on trusting that everything is going to work out in the end. i still have my days where i just want to cry. i'm frustrated with the unknowns and uncertain future of my career. but i know i have nothing to fear as long as i rely on God for EVERYTHING.
last night, eric took me to a matthew west concert. west is an amazing storyteller and one of his songs, "strong enough", really got to me. (i know it's not that shocking for ME to cry at music!) the song was inspired by a teenage girl who got in a fairly serious car accident that led to 13 surgeries on her leg. she was at the end of her rope during one of her treatments when her mom told her that God would never give her more than she could handle. her response was that God must have thought she was much stronger than she actually was. i feel like i have thought that exact thing almost daily through this whole ordeal.
the song is outstanding, so here it is since i can't say it any better than matthew west already did:
