although the new year began over a week ago, i am marking this day, january 10, 2011, as my official new beginning. i am not the same person i was on this day a year ago, nor will i be the same person a year from now. i have loved, laughed, cried, screamed, and grown my way through another 365 days on this earth. and i have come out on the other side a broken spirit in need of the healing touch of my God.
and i am perfectly okay with that. i know that in my weakness, God's strength shines through. i know that in my brokenness, fullness in Christ is now attainable. i am comforted to know that every step i take has been known by God since before creation. it is no surprise to him that i have found myself in this place, in need of healing and strength. he knew i was going to come to a point where i realized i couldn't continue to go through the motions of life and only live for others.
i have lived my life for other people for as long as i can remember. i have always been the one to make others happy, even at the cost of my own happiness. but new beginnings have come and i am living my life for myself and for my Lord. i am following his lead because walking with him insures that i will never fail. i may stumble, and i may fall, but i will never be overcome. i will look back on the mess of my life and see nothing but the beauty of God's redemption.
i have been fearfully and wonderfully made by a God who loves more deeply and more vastly than i will ever comprehend. i am his daughter, destined for greatness so that i can bring glory to my Father in heaven.
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